the soundtrack to my art / personal utopia
Updated: Aug 3, 2021
when experiencing any form of art, i have to experience all the 5 senses. or at least i just like to. otherwise it doesn't do much.
i was talking to a friend about this regarding novels. for the longest time i thought reading just wasn't my thing, or i wasn't 'smart' enough to fully appreciate literature without zoning out every few pages. my friend said, 'or its just bad writing'. then it resurfaced this frustration, that the education system i endured forced us to analyze everything. another reason why i had a difficult time digesting complex storytelling through words on a page. too many distractions. it wasn't until i graduated from high school, i would find the books i wanted to read. in turn, they aided in my personal artwork. sort of like world-building.
here are my current top picks of literature, music, and film, that i personally connect with. and help build a deeper atmosphere in my little world.
the unabridged journals of sylvia plath
cliche...probably. surprise, a teenage girl really loves sylvia plath. give us ladies a break! shes an incredibly iconic poet!! her recollections fuel such rich, potential illustrations. they make my imagination run wild. i'm no expert on this poetry stuff. i just know what i feel.
"It all flowed over me with a screaming ache of pain... remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling. I want to become acutely aware of all I've taken for granted."
what makes me truly fall in love with it is the feeling of intimacy this journal format exudes. i've been told by instructors and peers that my work has intimate qualities to it, which maybe is why i am attracted to this style of literature. im very much interested in this version of how people act, and what they say, when nobody is watching.
when the truck of my motivation, inspiration, and technical ability hits a roadblock in one field, i always turn to something else. switch vehicles. or rather, i like having all 10 toes in different waters. its funny to visualize that.
reading plath is one of my many backup vans. the intimate venting creates some sort of para-social relationship? i'm not sure if those are the right words (hence why i'm a visual artist), but i just generally feel connected. she puts the frustrations a woman can have into concise, powerful words. sometimes the entries can get quite heavy, i can't read it that often. but when i do pick it up, it's a wonderful, chaotic, cozy high!